Motivation

Those of us who are tremendously overweight often cannot see ourselves as others do. For that matter, who does? I noticed when going through some old pictures that most of our photos are of other people...because I was the one taking the pictures. And when I wasin the picture, I was usually hidden behind someone else. It wasn't something I did intentionally, but points to a whole lot of similar behaviors that overwieght folks develop. I'm becoming aware of more of those as I lose weight.

It's as though some internal gate has opened through which previously unacceptable thoughts can now pass. One evening I was sitting watchig TV but was really just thinking about my weight and decided I needed a visual image. So I asked Linda to take a picture of me lounging back in my recliner. She took it with my phone, and now I carry it with me. It sorta keeps me honest because not only do I see a really fat guy, but I remember how it felt to try to get out of that chair. I was getting to the point where it actually took a lot of effort and time to get up from that chair.

Now I carry that picture with me...in my phone. I wanted to get it out and print it so I could see it in other places...but I don't seem to be able to email it from my phone...and don't have the special-to-this-phone USB cable to get it into the computer directly. But I have it. And see it in my brain.

In September I'll have Linda take another photo. It won't look thatdifferent, but...well, we'll see!

Thanks for the notes, folks! They really help!