Wake-up Call

Well, I was a little disappointed. We went to see Linda's diabetes specialist Monday. While she was being processed she was weighed. I saw my chance to prove how much I had lost and stepped onto the digital scales. 385. I was anticipating seeing something like 370. After all, my pants are falling off, shirts sliding around one me. People remark at how much weight I must have lost, how good I am looking. I guess I set myself up for a fall.

However. When I started really thinking about it, I HAVE lost 35 pounds. When you are morbidly obese (a term I still find difficult to use), 35 pounds doesn't seem like much. I needed a new reference point. So, while Linda was leading a group at the Women's Crisis Center Monday night, I went to Wal-Mart.

I actually did not buy anything. I'm trying to get over the shopping-therapy thing. I went to the back of the store to the dairy section and stood in front of the butter display. I placed a pound of butter (four sticks in a box) in my cart. then another. And another. And another. Until I had 35 pounds of butter in my cart. I should have taken a picture with the camera, but I have it in my mind now--what 35 pounds of fat looks like. That's not so bad, to have lost THAT much!

I resisted the temptation to start sticking boxes of butter under my belt. I was aware of the security cameras in the ceiling. So I put all the butter back where it was. As I left I felt a little lighter in my step.

I've lost 35 pounds by basically doing nothing except drinking the Low-carb Slim Fast and eating a salad and some meat each evening. I figure that now is the time to start adding in exercise like walking to help keep me in ketosis and burn up some more.

I go back to Dr. David September 1st. I'm going to try to lose another 15 pounds by then. I know, maybe I'll lose 5 instead, but I'm going for the 15. I'll blog about the journey.

By the way, thanks to those who have written with support or posted supportive comments on this blog page. You enter my thoughts MANY times EACH DAY! You are helping. THANKS!